Alrighty. Updates.

I played Humans Vs. Zombies earlier this month. It was so bad ass I can not possibly describe it to you. I made it through the entire week as a human. If you don't know what HvZ is, then let me tell you how HARD it is to make it through as a human if you play it right.

Visit this link for more info about HvZ: [link]
Check out the Documentary too ---> [link]

Seriously, check that shit out. Bad ass as hell.

In other news. College. It is slowly killing me and draining my life force. Also I'm broke because I have to help my parents pay bills.

I also recently acquire a Giant African Millipede. Except his is a baby...so he's less than giant at the moment. On a sadder note one of my cockroaches Ludwig died. RIP Ludwig. You will be missed. Except by Kaia. She is happy you are gone and may or may not dance on your grave later.

I'll be on Thanksgiving Break starting after 5 next Monday. Not having classes Tuesdays really paid off this semester. Hopefully this means I can work on my Insect Collection and Beekeeping paper that I have due in December. Also I'll be doing some baking. Somewhere in between all that and talking to the boyfriend I might actually get some of my doodles posted. I might actually also get some art that takes ACTUAL effort put into it.

Anyway. I have other things I need to get doing. Mostly talking to my mom. So here's the Christmas thing.

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THE BASICS: write a Christmas/Holiday wish list. It can be any 10 wishes you'd like to have granted, no matter what they are. Possible or seemingly impossible. People look and grant the wishes if they can. It's not about "OMFG PRESENTS", it's about making someone else's holiday a little brighter by giving. Personally, I get more out of giving than receiving sometimes. It's just a good feeling to give.

STEP ONE

** Make a post in your journal. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fun ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

** If you wish for real possible things, make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you. In this case, you can always just note someone on dA.

** Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your journal, so that others can join in and participate to spread the holiday joy!


STEP TWO

** Surf around your friend list to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

** If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

** You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

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1. Friends. It seems like a dumb wish, and you're all probably like "WTF you have friends." And you'd be right. I do have friends. But I never get to hang out with anybody, or no one wants to hang out with me. So I want people to want to hang out with me even though I have no way to really contact people as I have no phone, no car, and no license. And no money.

2. Money. Not for me, but for my family. As it is I'm having to take money out of my paychecks to help mom pay off some bills. Both my parents are unemployed and even $20 helps out at this point.

3. Barnes and Noble, and/or Borders gift cards. Seriously, I love books. I eat those fuckers up.

4. Someone to draw my dragons -->([link]). No one but me seems to show any interest in them, and part of me desperately wants someone to see them and go "hey that's a cool idea." It's kinda my dream for someone to do that.

5. The HvZ bandanna or Shirt. If you want to buy me this they can be found on the HvZ website on the link up there earlier in the journal.

6. A teleporter to Australia. I seriously watched Stardust the other night and almost died a little inside from not being with Olly. So I want to be able to be with Olly. I miss his hugs.

7. This Shirt ---> [link] For ceral.

8. People to actually comment on my cosplay and art.

9. A 2 gallon aquarium. Only if you have a spare. I wanna get a tarantula, but if I can skip having to buy a tank by bumming one off someone that'll make it easier on me.

10. A big wish of mine right now is to get the last two classes on my schedule that I really want. AD 262 which is Jewelery and Metal Working and Dance 101 which is Modern Dance 1. It would make my schedule perfect.

Link me to any lists you guys do. I'll try and grant some wishes if I can!

Thought I'd update. Since I've been SUPER BUSY, and haven't gotten much posted.

So. It's October, October break is this next week. I going home. I'm oh so happy about that I might add.

I watched NRL today. It was pretty BA. Melbourne Storm beat the Parrametta Eels. It was pretty awesome. Last night I hung out with Dan and Britt. We watched Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind. It was awesome. Also there was general merriment. And Gargoyle jizz was spilled all over my carpet. Technically it was ranch sauce. But we joked it was Gargoyle jizz because earlier we had a conversation about my romance novel, in which it was Human and Gargoyle relations. Again, much awesomeness.

Hopefully I'll get more art and shit posted cause DQ has 1) hired more people and 2) it's getting cold, fewer people want ice cream, so my hours are getting cut. You have no idea how happy I am about that. And since I have the job at the Entomology department supplementing my income, it's pretty much like I have one stable job. Which rocks.

So a list of things that I'm going to get going on, once I pay off all my annoying medical bills:

1) Giant Tadpole Jackson Plushie (for Eruka cosplay)
2) Silver Brief case (again Eruka cosplay)
3) Fixing Crona
4) Any commissions that come my way (which is probably going to be zero)

I'd put more but I'm like....half dead.

I got a new fish. His name is Marvin. I also have seem to have lost a vile of my bugs for ENTM 335. Which is very very bad. Fuck.

Halloween should be interesting, cause I'm walking around Purdue campus in Eruka. If Anime Club has their annual cosplay contest. If not. Not doing it. More or less because I don't want to waste money on a costume solely for Halloween. It's bullshittery.

In other news I wanna take Modern Dance next sememster. Cause I wanna learn to dance so I don't look retarded on rave room floors.

Anyway, I have homework, and bug pinning to get done. Also CSI is on and I'm giggling a bit cause it has to do with Korea. I find it ironic that Korea is on my TV when Kaia isn't here.

So apparently my Eruka is quite popular. Because I think my pageviews shot up by a least 300 if not more over the course of two days, and I had a billion activity messages.

Not as many comments as I wanted though. *glare*

Anyway, I feel asleep in Physics. That was nice. Except that I kinda failed a quiz because of it. =3=

Also, emotionally better. Sorta. I'm happy for the friends that gave me some comment lovin'. It helped.

But there are still decisions swimming around in my head. Not making a commitment to any one of them until my period of observation is complete. Though I have to commit myself to how long I'm going to observe before moving my metaphorical chess pieces forward.

Hopefully after these next two rounds of grub collecting I can finally sleep in on Tuesdays and Thursdays...at least until 9 am. But that's a welcome release from waking up at 5 am.

I also now really want to shank my new GM in the eye. For three main reasons. One, she said that she's going to watch our security cameras every night to make sure we're all working. Two, my manager weighted my ice cream cone I made. It was an ounce over what it should have been. He then proceeded to tell me the new GM would get shitty with me if I didn't fix that. He also said that she told him that DQ had a lot of applicants so whoever doesn't conform is just going to get fired. So. She's a bitch. And I want to shank her in the eye with a sharpened dildo covered in sandpaper.

I now dread going to DQ, and enjoy my Entm department job. Because the Entomology department ISN'T FULL OF BITCHES. *repeatedly stabs something*

Lunch calls, and I still need to print off a paper for my ENTM 335 class. So toodles all!

Also here's a Tag that I have from Emma.

Ask what I think of you and..

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours.



And another tag from Kaikuu.

1.Who is your celebrity crush?
Gerard Bulter melts my vagina he's so hot.

2.What are you most excited for?
At the moment, a break. Any kind of break. Just a break from working, financial trouble, and school.

3.What was the last thing you bought?
Taco Bell. It was my dinner Sunday night with Dan ; 3 ;

4.What was the cutest thing you've seen today?
I don't think I've seen anything cute today....I saw an Asian riding a unicycle. That was exciting. Not so much cute though.

5.Does the weather affect your mood?
Rain makes me happpyyy. Unless I have to walk in it. And Thunderstorms make me excited as.

6. tell me 5 things you can't live without:
1. Olly. Reasons are obvious.
2. Family and Friends.
3. Air.
4. Water.
5. Food.

Last three are bullshitted because, quite frankly, I'm not sad enough to have something I'm so obsessed with that I couldn't live without. There are things I'd be sad to be without them, but live without? No. Just no.

7.Say something to the person who tagged you:
I can hear you typing. <--- No of course I'm not creepy *walks away whistling*

Yeah, I finally got to do something...not work or school related. I work so much if I don't die by the end of the year I'll be massively impressed. Not to mention on top of that I'm on my period so I'm even MORE exhausted now.

Anyway. School. It's going. My job at the Entomology Department is alright. Not to bad, not to fantastic. DQ is about to become hell because we got a new GM, who is apparently a hard ass. And thusly, for some reason, the managers are like "oh I have to be hard ass too." I miss Bobbie. She was nice. This is a damn college town. The only people who are hard ass are Profs no one likes. Stupid GM.

Shea gave me a BLT tonight. It made me happy. Especially after 2 panic attacks. And now what seems to be the depression I haven't been able to toss. Well, I call it depression. Whether it is or not I don't know because I won't see a shrink. I'm too poor for a shrink.

As it is I have to go back to my OBGYN to get a test done because I had an abnormal pap smear. For the boys, that's where they took some cells from my cervix and had them analyzed to make sure I don't have anything wrong with it. An abnormal one means I could have anything from an infection to cervical cancer. Most often it's an infection, but that chance that it's not has me a little scared.

But yeah. I don't feel so hot emotionally. Probably because I refuse to talk to anyone about it. I don't really even want to talk to my poor boyfriend about it anymore because I feel like I burden him with it too much.

And I've convinced myself that my friends will hate me for talking to them about it, one because a lot of my emotional issues stem issues that have to do with them but that I choose to keep all locked inside (my need to please is horribly high), and I've done it wrong in the past so I'm afraid everyone will just tell me I'm emo and a bitch and wrong and to go away.

I really hate myself sometimes. I just really don't know what to do anymore. I feel like crying more often that I really want to. I pretend to be happy, and do a convincing job of it I think, but deep down I'm not very happy at all. Part of this is all PMS induced. The other part is 6+ years of pent up emotional stress that I never tell anyone about. So pardon my partial emotional cleansing....which really isn't helping.

Oh well. My life moves forward.

I'm determined to start up the Cosplay Club. Even if I don't have even enough money to pay for books. It just means I'll have to hold off on everything. Fuck.

I should go to bed. But I'll just end up thinking to much about stuff. So I'll work on something.

Ta~

I am back at it.

Good times are ahead.

Moved into my lovely room. Should probably give everyone a tour of it with dear =Kaikuu.

I had to work last night cause the manager begged me to come in. So I did. I figure I need the money. What with books and all. Can't wait to see my friends here on campus again. :3

Update later. Gonna plug my printer in now.