Thought I'd update. Since I've been SUPER BUSY, and haven't gotten much posted.

So. It's October, October break is this next week. I going home. I'm oh so happy about that I might add.

I watched NRL today. It was pretty BA. Melbourne Storm beat the Parrametta Eels. It was pretty awesome. Last night I hung out with Dan and Britt. We watched Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind. It was awesome. Also there was general merriment. And Gargoyle jizz was spilled all over my carpet. Technically it was ranch sauce. But we joked it was Gargoyle jizz because earlier we had a conversation about my romance novel, in which it was Human and Gargoyle relations. Again, much awesomeness.

Hopefully I'll get more art and shit posted cause DQ has 1) hired more people and 2) it's getting cold, fewer people want ice cream, so my hours are getting cut. You have no idea how happy I am about that. And since I have the job at the Entomology department supplementing my income, it's pretty much like I have one stable job. Which rocks.

So a list of things that I'm going to get going on, once I pay off all my annoying medical bills:

1) Giant Tadpole Jackson Plushie (for Eruka cosplay)
2) Silver Brief case (again Eruka cosplay)
3) Fixing Crona
4) Any commissions that come my way (which is probably going to be zero)

I'd put more but I'm like....half dead.

I got a new fish. His name is Marvin. I also have seem to have lost a vile of my bugs for ENTM 335. Which is very very bad. Fuck.

Halloween should be interesting, cause I'm walking around Purdue campus in Eruka. If Anime Club has their annual cosplay contest. If not. Not doing it. More or less because I don't want to waste money on a costume solely for Halloween. It's bullshittery.

In other news I wanna take Modern Dance next sememster. Cause I wanna learn to dance so I don't look retarded on rave room floors.

Anyway, I have homework, and bug pinning to get done. Also CSI is on and I'm giggling a bit cause it has to do with Korea. I find it ironic that Korea is on my TV when Kaia isn't here.

So apparently my Eruka is quite popular. Because I think my pageviews shot up by a least 300 if not more over the course of two days, and I had a billion activity messages.

Not as many comments as I wanted though. *glare*

Anyway, I feel asleep in Physics. That was nice. Except that I kinda failed a quiz because of it. =3=

Also, emotionally better. Sorta. I'm happy for the friends that gave me some comment lovin'. It helped.

But there are still decisions swimming around in my head. Not making a commitment to any one of them until my period of observation is complete. Though I have to commit myself to how long I'm going to observe before moving my metaphorical chess pieces forward.

Hopefully after these next two rounds of grub collecting I can finally sleep in on Tuesdays and Thursdays...at least until 9 am. But that's a welcome release from waking up at 5 am.

I also now really want to shank my new GM in the eye. For three main reasons. One, she said that she's going to watch our security cameras every night to make sure we're all working. Two, my manager weighted my ice cream cone I made. It was an ounce over what it should have been. He then proceeded to tell me the new GM would get shitty with me if I didn't fix that. He also said that she told him that DQ had a lot of applicants so whoever doesn't conform is just going to get fired. So. She's a bitch. And I want to shank her in the eye with a sharpened dildo covered in sandpaper.

I now dread going to DQ, and enjoy my Entm department job. Because the Entomology department ISN'T FULL OF BITCHES. *repeatedly stabs something*

Lunch calls, and I still need to print off a paper for my ENTM 335 class. So toodles all!

Also here's a Tag that I have from Emma.

Ask what I think of you and..

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours.



And another tag from Kaikuu.

1.Who is your celebrity crush?
Gerard Bulter melts my vagina he's so hot.

2.What are you most excited for?
At the moment, a break. Any kind of break. Just a break from working, financial trouble, and school.

3.What was the last thing you bought?
Taco Bell. It was my dinner Sunday night with Dan ; 3 ;

4.What was the cutest thing you've seen today?
I don't think I've seen anything cute today....I saw an Asian riding a unicycle. That was exciting. Not so much cute though.

5.Does the weather affect your mood?
Rain makes me happpyyy. Unless I have to walk in it. And Thunderstorms make me excited as.

6. tell me 5 things you can't live without:
1. Olly. Reasons are obvious.
2. Family and Friends.
3. Air.
4. Water.
5. Food.

Last three are bullshitted because, quite frankly, I'm not sad enough to have something I'm so obsessed with that I couldn't live without. There are things I'd be sad to be without them, but live without? No. Just no.

7.Say something to the person who tagged you:
I can hear you typing. <--- No of course I'm not creepy *walks away whistling*

Yeah, I finally got to do something...not work or school related. I work so much if I don't die by the end of the year I'll be massively impressed. Not to mention on top of that I'm on my period so I'm even MORE exhausted now.

Anyway. School. It's going. My job at the Entomology Department is alright. Not to bad, not to fantastic. DQ is about to become hell because we got a new GM, who is apparently a hard ass. And thusly, for some reason, the managers are like "oh I have to be hard ass too." I miss Bobbie. She was nice. This is a damn college town. The only people who are hard ass are Profs no one likes. Stupid GM.

Shea gave me a BLT tonight. It made me happy. Especially after 2 panic attacks. And now what seems to be the depression I haven't been able to toss. Well, I call it depression. Whether it is or not I don't know because I won't see a shrink. I'm too poor for a shrink.

As it is I have to go back to my OBGYN to get a test done because I had an abnormal pap smear. For the boys, that's where they took some cells from my cervix and had them analyzed to make sure I don't have anything wrong with it. An abnormal one means I could have anything from an infection to cervical cancer. Most often it's an infection, but that chance that it's not has me a little scared.

But yeah. I don't feel so hot emotionally. Probably because I refuse to talk to anyone about it. I don't really even want to talk to my poor boyfriend about it anymore because I feel like I burden him with it too much.

And I've convinced myself that my friends will hate me for talking to them about it, one because a lot of my emotional issues stem issues that have to do with them but that I choose to keep all locked inside (my need to please is horribly high), and I've done it wrong in the past so I'm afraid everyone will just tell me I'm emo and a bitch and wrong and to go away.

I really hate myself sometimes. I just really don't know what to do anymore. I feel like crying more often that I really want to. I pretend to be happy, and do a convincing job of it I think, but deep down I'm not very happy at all. Part of this is all PMS induced. The other part is 6+ years of pent up emotional stress that I never tell anyone about. So pardon my partial emotional cleansing....which really isn't helping.

Oh well. My life moves forward.

I'm determined to start up the Cosplay Club. Even if I don't have even enough money to pay for books. It just means I'll have to hold off on everything. Fuck.

I should go to bed. But I'll just end up thinking to much about stuff. So I'll work on something.

Ta~

I am back at it.

Good times are ahead.

Moved into my lovely room. Should probably give everyone a tour of it with dear =Kaikuu.

I had to work last night cause the manager begged me to come in. So I did. I figure I need the money. What with books and all. Can't wait to see my friends here on campus again. :3

Update later. Gonna plug my printer in now.

Rocked. Hardcore.

Yeah the panels were kinda shitty, as was the vendors room (which was a GOOD thing because that way I didn't blow my food money on stuff). However, I did get screwed out of $10 by a guy that was asking for money. Oh well. Such is the price I pay for having a caring soul.

BUT. I did buy a giant shark plush. Pictures will be posted. Also, I got a Black Butler figure of Madam Red. I would spell it in Japanese however I can't even say it right so I'll just translate it.

My Eruka cosplay rocked. Pictures will also be posted, after I borrow some from Kaia. Because I didn't get but one on my camera. Crona was pretty good too. But he needs some work before the next convention.

However because I did not enter the cosplay contest Kim and Kaia exiled me to a car full of Misa cosplays, with Bob Barker dressed as a Misa, playing Plinko. Later they changed the sentence to just being in there with Bob Barker and Plinko, but still! I'VE NEVER PLAYED PLINKO. D8

There was also an awesome quote from a Travis Willingham (Roy Mustang from FMA)uncensored panel. Every question we asked him had to involve a cuss word, so one girl made this statement:

"You got me addicted to Chick-fel-a and penis."

I was rolling out of my chair laughing at this point. It was fantastic. I wish someone had been able to get it on camera, but they weren't allowed in the uncensored panel. GOD SO AWESOME THOUGH.

Anyway, I'm kinda bored. So that's my update for the weekend. This week. Nothing. This weekend, picnic with my friends that I haven't seen in FRICKIN FOREVER. Next week. College. Again.

Hopefully I'll work on my art again here in a bit. Until then, toodles. :3